TALK THAT SH!T

I have always been called passionate.

Sometimes it’s because I bring energy, excitement, or humor.

Sometimes it’s because I talk shit.

I mentioned to Sara this morning that I think I figured out what I was actually talking shit about:

I was right about who I was, and I wish I would have told people to f*** off sooner. 

It’s been 8 years since I quit my job with no plan.

I literally have achieved everything I wanted. 

This isn’t a puff piece, I’m just telling the truth. 

Now that I can see my timeline with clarity and hindsight is 20/20, I see I missed a few things.

I wanted to move to California in 2013.

I booked the tickets, but I didn’t take the trip. 

I didn’t because I was too scared, too broke, and too focused on a stable career.

I can now see that when I met Sara at 16 we could have run away together and would have been just fine. 

We talked about it in high school.

But people’s opinions of my actions mattered more to me than what I knew about me. 

Most of the delay to my current success wasn’t that I needed to finish high school or college. 

It was getting away from everything I was “supposed” to do so my raw talent could develop. 

I don’t belong in a system, I know how to code my own realities. 

So when I talk shit it has edge to it.

The same edge I had when I was 16.

The same edge when I walked up to my high school varsity basketball coach and told him I’m here to play on your team. 

He told me freshmen start on the freshmen team. 

I grinned at him. 

I was the only freshman to make varsity that year.

I believe I am right where I am supposed to be, but I don’t believe in one timeline that we are supposed to find and develop. 

None of my experiences were wasted, but not all of them were worth going through.

You can jump timelines, you can code switch, you can blend experiences and create new ideas and realities. 

There is a version of yourself that is in great shape.

There is a version of yourself that is financially chilling. 

There is a version of yourself that is at peace. 

There is a version of yourself that doesn’t hope for a better future.

I’m not prescribing you quit, but I am prescribing you start.

I am advising as someone on the other side, that you don’t get to this side without some risk, edge, curiosity, art, and maybe a killer jump shot.